Recently,I start to miss my old friends in HIHS.I also do not know why I have such feelings.People say that I can make new friends in new school,but your new friends can never ever instead of your old friends.Anyway,although JC life is very stressful,I will try to keep in touch with them.

Firstly,I will miss Seow Hwee,this girl is a bit crazy,okay,I think not only a bit,she is very crazy!But on the other hand,what are covered by her crazy actions?She is smart and logical.She is a strong and powerful girl.Although she does not like me to say that she is a beautiful girl,to be honest,I have to say,she is beautiful.Actually,I do not need to worry too much about her as she is an independent girl,she can settle most problems by herself,but sometimes,she is a bit emotional,that is the time she show her girly side.She will cry in front of you unstoppable.I really do not want to see that,not because I feel annoyed.It is because her cry also make me want to cry,luckily,last time I stopped her crying before I started to cry together with her=.=Girl crying is acceptable,but a big boy like me cry together with a girl...That sounds a bit wrong.Anyway,after experience so much,I believe that she has became much more mature.I hope that she can get into a good university course which she wants after 2 years JC studying,and I believe that she can do it.Anyway,if she meet any problem in the future,I will always welcome her to tell me and I will do my best to help her.

I will also miss Russell.He is smart,logical,wise and independent.Oh,yeah,I prefer to using sexy and attractive these two words on him.I can say that he is the smartest student in HIHS,I also can say that he is the most dirty student in HIHS.Does dirty people always be very smart?I am not very sure.Anyway,he quite enjoy my sick jokes.Okay,let us forget about those "guys topic",those R-21 stuff I will discuss him privately.I think although he is in Poly now,I always feel a bit pity as I think he should go JC,he will succeed in future.Maybe someday later we will meet in university again,and when the time we meet each other,muhahahaha...my hands will go...okay,he knows what I will do to him,and I think he will enjoy it as he always do=)But during my 2 years JC life,as I cannot always see him,I need to find someone to instead of him,who will be the "lucky" one?I think these people later can group up a victim group,the name will be "victims which have been tortured by Ma Sai",and I am very sure that Russell will be the chairman of the group=)

Luckily,some of my dear friends get into the same JC as me,Yoong Aunn and Hui Hui,So I do not need to miss them.Hui Xin also get into the same JC as me,I think after Orientation,I will go find a time to "disturb" her=)Although Kendy not in same school as me,I will not miss the shortie,it is because almost everyday she will "scold" me(she does not mean it),hahaha,she just enjoy scolding me and I have already adapt to it.Without her scolding,can I fall in asleep tonight?But to be serious,I will worry about her,this girl need more confidence on herself.Anyway,I will do whatever I can do to help her,although she need to dependent on herself,my spiritual comfort also very important=)

Yesterday I had a very very weird dream,I dreamed about someone who I do not want to dream of.In fact,I have tried to forget about her since the day she said we are impossible,but I cannot forget about her till now.Every moments when we are together,every scene and every word,everything seems just happen yesterday and I remember all of them clearly.

What make her so charmful and unforgettable?I am not really very sure,but one thing I really cannot wipe out from my brain is her smile.Since the day when she knows I have feeling to her,she never smile to me anymore.The only thing instead of smile on her face is embarrassment.I know what she feels and since she have already said we are impossible,I gave up on her.I know there is someone else and I hope she can be happy.But when we meet each other every time,both of us do not dare to look into each other's eyes,without smile,without saying "hello",just pass by each other silently,like a pair of strangers.

Yesterday I dreamed that she smiling to me,the smile which long time I never see.On one hand,I feel very sad as it was just a stupid dream,and the dream made me more sad.It made me wake up at 2 am and it took me another 1 hour to try to fall into asleep again.=.=On the other hand,I felt quite happy as her smile just like a wonderful magic,just by looking at it,you can forget all the sadness.

People always say that she cheat me and hurt me,they say she is not worth for me to chase.Maybe they are right but maybe they are wrong,I think she is innocent as I made my own decision to chase her,no one forced me.Everything happened naturally and suddenly,I even did not well-prepared and it just happened,without a sign or a reason.I promised myself I will forget about her,The two songs "as long as you love me" and "I want it that way" were actually sing for her.I know we are impossible and when can I forget about her?it is a question mark.