Finally,O level was over!I believe that a lot people will use this long holiday to relax themselves,but for me,this holiday is definitely a suffering time.The reason is very simple,I had messed up my O level so do you think I still have mood to enjoy my holiday?

I just cannot get that why I am not in the form during the examination period and this is such a bored thing for me.I have prepared well before examination and as my standard,my raw marks for L1R5 can at least get 10 points,but this time,I do not think that I can achieve what I should achieve.After a few sleepless night,I still cannot forget about this bad feeling.In fact,this is my first time experience such feeling.I have never worry about my results before...Either I did not care about them or I could deal with them.I just cannot believe that how can I lost my form in such a important examination?Anyway,I do not know what the hell is going on in my mind,the only thing now I try to do is make myself calm down...

I was a bad student before,I mean my results were very lousy before,but I did not care about them as I was very young and know nothing at that time.After I went to Secondary 3(in China school),I started to realise the importance of studying and my results have never made me disappointed since that time,that was 6 years ago.Although I could not always be level top-one,my results could always send me into the top class or top-3 school easily.That was the reason why I did not need to worry about them,just be well-prepared before examination and do not be nervous during examination time,no matter how important the examination is,I can perform very well and show my real standard on my results.

My bad performance made me think of one of my best friend in my hometown,how to describe her?She was a legend in our secondary school as her results were super-good.For example,the best high school in our hometown need at least 510 marks then can go in,a lot of people wished to go into that school but 510 marks was too high for them.For many of them,they even cannot achieve 400 marks...but this girl,she could get about 600 marks EASILY...=.=...of course,after 3 years secondary school life,she entered the best high school in our hometwon EASILY...=.=...but then,her suffering time was coming,compare her secondary school results with her high school results,you can really find a very big difference.At that time,I even cannot believe that after she told me she was suffering as I thought that was impossible...and now,I got what she felt too.That was a really bad experience.

In fact,both of us have already adapted to get good results during examination,I know it is sounds quite pride,but can you just imagine that you can always perform well and constantly during examinations,will you still worry about your results?One of my another friend said that we need to learn how to face failure and I think she was right.Sometimes,failure was not a bad thing,it makes our mind clear.Our life track is like to take a roller coaster,up down,up down and no one can always remain in a high level.You cannot always be a winner and that situation only appears in movie.Now,it is time for me to be a loser,actually,I was a big loser during primary school,I never felt it just because I was dumb and did not care about my results at that time.

Anyway,I think I will adjust my mind,take a break and go back to my life battlefield again.I am still very young and I am very sure that there are still a lot of failures and difficulties waiting for me in the future.I will prepare myself to accept my lousy results and I will use this holiday to set some other future plans.I believe that I will be back soon=)