What if I get rejected by her?That what I am thinking now.Simple question but hard to answer.Will I get heart attack at the moment when she says "NO"?I hope that some kind people can use canno blow off my heart first brfore she reject me...=.=...You may ask since when I become so negative?To be honestly,the confident and optimistic Ma Sai has already murdered by love!

"Cheer up!Man!"I heard the sound come from heaven,but I think recently,my guarding angel either get sick or not at home as she is not guarding me anymore.I try to tell myself that there still have hope,even only a little,but then,the dark clouds on the sky block the only hope I can see.Therefore,I feel hopeless.

Anyway,sky is no long blue for me,water is no long clear for me,air is no long clean for me,I feel like died.Ma Sai is really depressed.Now,I get insomnis because of her,I totally become a vampire,cannot fall into sleep at night!God seems don't like to help as he said I am not a faithful followers,but the demons in the hell told me that,"they have already left a place for me in hell!"Whatever...What is the difference between earth and hell?I am already become a half died man as my heart is died.I told demons that,"Take whatever you want,my soul,my body,just please leave my died heart in the grave peacefully as I still love her..."